Well, you are getting this post from a cabin tucked away in the Arkansas' forest! I am surrounded by wildflowers, cicadas (which make a ridiculous amount of noise!), deer, butterflies, ticks (which I woke up yesterday morning to one using me as an all-you-can-eat buffet... GROSS!), and the beautiful lake! Definitely a little slice of God's heaven!!
Yesterday, Mom and I went on lots of walks and drives down the roads that surround us and I got to delight myself in taking picture after picture of wildlife, flowers, insects, and unique shots of nature!! Can anyone say an absolute BLAST!?!?!?!?! Today we will probably be heading out on the lake to watch my brothers (Alex was able to get off from him camp counselor gig this weekend and is coming over for the day!!) waterski and then later mom and I might go into Eureka Springs to be the quintessential tourists and also shoot a few more interesting photos! =D I'm hoping that when I get home I can start scrapbooking again and organize my pictures! I had such fun with that years ago and I think it would be a perfect hobby to take up with my photography!! Who knows, maybe I'll even be able to start selling some of my prints on a small scale?! It's all in God's hands!!
Pain-wise I have been miserable and it has permeated everything we have done. I have tried my best to rely on Christ's strength to get through and have really focused on keeping a positive perspective on everything. Last night I woke up at 3:30 in a ton of pain and, thankfully, was able to catch a few more hours of sleep from 6-8:30 but it still qualified as a rough night. I'm thinking I probably overdid it yesterday, but honestly it was worth it!! Mom and I definitely needed some fun, one-on-one time that didn't revolve around doctors, or therapists, or anything to do with RSD! We were able to be completely spontaneous and have a blast stopping whenever and for whatever caught our fancy! (Hopefully, when I get back to Flo-Mo I'll be able to figure out how to post some of the pictures that I was able to capture! =))
Probably one of my favorite shots happened when Mom and I were driving around exploring and we came across the neatest house (or what was left of it) that sat in the middle of a field off of the road! You could almost look back through the pages of history and see the day that the wife saw her husband's hard work, and her joy at seeing the two-story house where they would live was almost tangible, even 100s of years later! When looking at dilapidated old buildings, barns, and homes I realized that I was faced with two options. I could either look at it for what it is now... a bunch of rotten boards, broken windows, and tattered window covers; or, I could see it through different eyes and appreciate it for the beauty and joy it brought to it's first owners and how much they treasured it. I love trying to picture the life that was lived within those walls and to see the good instead of the bad that is painfully evident at this day-and-age!
I think Christ really used that as a life-lesson for me. In life it is so easy to see the gaping holes in the roof, the disintegrating floors that were once hand-laid with love, and the wooden window panes that are hanging askew instead of choosing to view the scene through Christ's eyes. To see it as what it was in it's prime and also what it could be in the future! Who knows what new and beautiful things could be created from the wood that has weathered centuries of rain, snow, and sunshine? It really convicted me of my life and how if I were to step back and look at it now, I would see flames of pain, broken dreams, and crushed spirits. But I have the choice to see the beauty of what my life used to be and then look on with anticipation to what God is going to do with what remains of that previous life. Just because things didn't go on the "Chelsea's Life Plan" track doesn't mean that God isn't going to be able to take the remains and transform them into something utterly breathtaking and spectacular!! I think I'm gonna chose to look through those eyes instead of the ones who only focus on the problems. =-)